dear

♬ All I hear is raindrops, falling on the rooftops

Uh baby, tell me why'd you have to go? ♬

hello, I'm here.
This is Wednesday-night. 20:40 wib.
and rain is falling heavily
.... and I'm home alone tonite.

So, I grab my laptop. Searching something I can read or watch. And I decided to open my twitter. I was scrolling the timeline when I found someone tweeted a photo. So, I opened it and the photo was about her and her boyfriend, holding each other's hand. And I was like.... hmm I'm envy. And I saw her bf favorited her tweet. I dunno why I opened his profile and I found a photo in his profile. It was him and you, you wore glasses there.

Officially Missing You by Tamia is accompanying me on this lonely night. I am thinking of you all over again. I am wondering what are you doing now, there. My prayers always go to you. Take care and I hope you come back safely. I... miss... you.

I am remembering bout all the past days, the things we've been through together. About how you made me safe. How you made my past days. How you created my smile. Oh those were lovely days. I don't understand anymore why these tears are falling from my eyes all of sudden. Maybe they are missing you too, dear.

I can't take this uncertainty. Sometimes I miss you, but sometimes I realize that I shouldn't. Everytime you around me, I feel happy because I know you are with me at the moment, not with the other. But when you're not, I am scared. I am scared if someone make you happier than I could. Please, you don't realize that your behaviors make me confused, do you? I need you but I really can't take this uncertainty.