Runaway

For so long, i dont believe that world is unfair. Sometimes, it just seems so. Seem doesnt mean it is, uh?

Now i am feeling so. I am in the edge of breaking down and no one is there to save me. For a moment i just wanna disappear. Actually no, i just wanna be found. 

These days, i rarely go out the classroom, i rarely go to canteen, and i always go home earlier than before. I dont wanna meet many people. No, actually certain people. No, actually that person.

I just realized something several days ago. Hearing something that absolutely kills you and having to act like you're fine? Not my specialist. Those things on the third paragraph. Yeah, i do it just to avoid me seeing something i dont wanna see. To avoid tears, to avoid more pain. I just... I am tired. Sick of all. Not loving you is harder than you know. 

And in the end... Yeah, this aint a fairytale and i dont think i'll ever be happy.